I lost the love of my life today, Diviana...

she was someone that stuck by me literally for 11 years when I was both at my best & at my worst. She was more than my other half, I could never be as good as her... she encouraged me to love even when I didn't want to & now she's encouraging me to fight as I frantically search for the strength to go on the rest of my life without her. I never even intended to have her, but I'm glad I had that $50 in my glove compartment box all those years ago to purchase her.

I can't stop thinking about how people could go on & think that God doesn't have a sense of humor. He's like... "I'm going to give you this warm, fuzzy life & it will love you unconditionally for it's ENTIRE life like no human possibly can. It will encourage you, stay by you, honor you & be euphoric by your touch... but it will never speak to you to tell you they're hurt, or to go screw yourself if you give them nasty food they don't like or that they're sick or need your help. They will LOAD you up with kisses & keep you up at night with their farts & their snoring Oh & in the state of California by law you HAVE to pick up their CRAP! They will make you laugh all the time & you will feel sheer terror every time you drive to the vet the whole way there making promises that are nearly impossible to keep when you wait for the Dr to say they will be ok & you will only have them *he squeezes his index finger & thumb together* for this amount of time OH & ONE year is equal to SEVEN friggin' years... HA! Good luck with that"



Thank you Diviana Ophelia Guerrier, my D.O.G. for CHOOSING me, for LOVING me & sticking around long enough to see me follow my dream. My greatest loss is the honor I had to be your Mother here on this earth... being loved by you has been my GREATEST experience & achievement. Make sure to find my Grandmother today & I look forward to seeing both of your faces, first when I'm blessed enough to meet you at the wonderful place you are both at. Today I feel incomplete... may feel this way for a while but having you these past 11 years truly was a gift from our very funny God.

A mir, mir Mami... fais do do Cherie. I love you, thank you for loving me.

Field Trippin: I'm going back to Cali

Been in Atlanta for 2 weeks for my little brother's craptastic wedding... TERRIBLE! Going home today & I CAN'T WAIT to get back into this

I LOVE my bed, it looks like a big Chanel Cambon purse *swoooooooon*

AND kiss my sweet babies! Full report to come soon...

How I Roll: Oh Well We're Movin' On Up

The End of an Era♥
Sorry for the LONG delay between blog posts as I have been busy looking for a place to live. Well I found a place & just moved in on July 15th. It was CRAZY so much went wrong on my search but then I found a place & at the last minute my happy place became a lover lost. I found a GREAT roommate & a great place in the Fairfax district, I spoke about this place in an earlier blog. It was TOTALLY what I was looking for & the potential roommate Derek & I seemed like a perfect fit. Unfortunately after days I believed I was going to move in his Landlord pulled a fast one.

He denied me due to breed discrimination. Divi's a pitbull & although she is thee most loving thing I have EVER known this dude was NOT budging... I was devastated, discouraged & then frustrated. The search was on again & there was more sifting through garbage & driving around town. Some people should be ASHAMED of themselves trying to rent out these human toilets & calling them apartments!

After several agonizing days I found 2 spots to pick from, it literally became a tale of 2 stoves One place was in Beverly Hills with a classic PERFECT condition Merritt & O'Keefe stove. The girl was cool but there was no parking, we would have to share a bathroom, no AC & she kind of had the place set up to her own standards (which weren't pretty high, I'm going to go to hell for that). I didn't feel like there was any room for me. Even though I was looking for a beautiful vintage spot with French Windows, wood floors & tons of character & this place had all of that seeing that stove already had me planning a garage sale in my head & living in tacky Swedish do it yourself blondewood furniture from the 80's mixed with Out of the Closet (a thrift store here in LA, please... if it was a Gay man's furniture store the pieces would've been slam-MING!) & street finds. Screw it my ever expanding butt can afford to park a few blocks away from the house anyways

I NEVER even seen one with a perfect Grillerator

After a few days something was gnawing at me... something about the place didn't feel right even though I stared at the pictures of the oven on my iPhone everyday for hours on end. I also was getting REALLY discouraged at the other 40 places I looked at. It was hot & I was just sick of the driving & feeling like I had nowhere to go. I literally had 2 weeks to find a place because I was already 2 weeks into my 30 day notice. Frustrated I decided to look at places that were a bit above my budget & then I saw this stove.
I emailed the guy who put the ad up within minutes after he put it up. He checked out my blog, hell HE'S A MASSIVE FOODIE!!! He loved the blog & invited me over the next day.
Divi & I marched our butt's right over. I wasn't going to see it because I wanted to move in but I was more curious to see how the other half lives. It was blocks away from my house & on Runyon Canyon a very popular hiking spot in Hollywood. Now Mike told me the kitchen was very impressive before I went there so Div & I were stoked. It was $125 over my budget, when I set a price for something I HAVE to stick to it, rarely do I make exceptions, it really is a gift... ok fine I'm a cheap bastard & rather spend my money on shoes & French cast iron! *snort*


Guess who won?!?!?










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This is the very first thing I see EVERY morning I wake up... *swooooooooooooooon* ♥


So now let me set you up with the rest of the stuff this PHAT, FAT crib I am blessed to live in:


Guest bath




WALK-IN PANTRY!!!

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Did I mention there is CENTRAL AC, my OWN bathroom & GUEST PARKING?!?!?! *swoon* oh & this!
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I've been living in LA for 11 years WITHOUT a Washer & Dryer in the house. Whenever my mother visits she says "Yeuh-ECK... you wash your panties where strangers wash there socks & sneakers & pay quarters for it?!?!?" I LOVE my Mom ♥

No walking blocks for parking when I can go 1 flight down & work it all out in here:

My MASSIVE room


YUP I ended up having a garage sale & what didn't sell I just left outside. It was like a field day for 2 days watching people like Mothers & Daughters going through & grabbing all the great stuff I left out there. It was so liberating to just not be attached to all that stuff, like I get this grand do-over


Winston aka "DA MONSTER" showing Divi around the place before we moved in, his face is so edible... we cruise all day, that's when I am not pulling random objects outside of his mouth, thank GOD he has small teeth & his jaw doesn't lock like Divi's I'd be assed OUT!

I get a new chance, Divi gets a new friend...and at the end so do I.

I love, love, LOVE living the Single life but being single does not define me. I live my life now in preparation for my future. I don't want when I am ready to settle down & to have my own family that I'm still trying to figure myself & life out. I want to be a complete person, well at least a more seasoned & understanding one. I've always wanted someone to be my exclamation point, not my period. Someone that makes me better. I don't want to figure out who I am while taking care of others, but I have to admit all this time I was prepping myself I forgot how great it is to have someone to come home to & vice versa. I was becoming... I don't want to say self-involved but just disconnected & a bit jaded about having to share my life & witnessing anothers.

My roommate is AH-MAY-ZING! His positivity is infectious, he's so respectful & super easy going. He's a REALLY hard worker but you can totally tell there is a method to his work madness, he fully appreciates the fruits of his labor & is comfortable in sharing it. I'm not used to seeing that it's really refreshing. I love to hear his girlfriend Mimi's laugh when she comes over. She too is a ridiculous foodie. They've been to some of thee best restaurants in the country, I saw with my own eyes, she has them all in her scrapbook... too cute & she's pretty gifted in the kitchen herself. I am totally inspired by their culinary prowess ♥

I couldn't be happier with the direction my life is going & I am a convert in believing that the best possible outcome for your life is available to you, even when you don't get what you want. I feel so blessed to have my family back me up on EVERY level as I pursue my culinary dreams & the support & love from my friends, especially my new ones. I hope you all forgive me for taking so long. I just wanted to find my home, get settled & enjoy it for a while before I headed back to the blogosphere. I missed you all ♥

Now get ready bitches...